-21.8 lbs Lost to Date
So here is the thing. I am mad at the gain, that's true. Even though I was expecting a gain it was a much bigger one than I'd managed to wrap my head around. And worse, I didn't go off my plan this week. I had a few splurges that's true, but I tracked them and used my weekly points. I didn't even go into the almost 50 activity points I earned this week.
A friend who is wiser than me says my body is probably trying to protect itself. While this could very likely be true it is so frustrating. I wish my body knew what my mind knows - that 300+ pounds is not the verge of starvation and I can lose the weight without facing a famine.
I'm working hard. I'm putting in the time and the effort and I have a vested interest in seeing that scale go down. It isn't so much about the number, but the number is a representation that I am moving toward health. Now I have to wait a week to hopefully break even again, which just seems like two weeks wasted when I don't have time to waste.
So I'm mad. And a little sad. And a lot confused.
I do know one thing however, if I don't keep going with Weight Watchers and exercise this week then I'm sure to gain more. And that is just not acceptable. So I'm left with:
But I'm not happy about it.