But the difference with this hard is that it is also good. So I press on.
And I will say that things have gotten a bit easier, even though they aren't easy by any stretch of the imagination.
So let's get to the weigh in this week. I honestly expected to lose just a little or even gain. I had a big week last week, I was on retreat, we had birthday celebrations with Little Goat, I had a cold, and some monthly hormonal joys. I expected it to be not too much, if anything.
So, yeah, here is what really happened:
- 4.6 Pounds Lost
-24 lbs Lost to Date
I just don't know what to make of this really. I am thrilled. Thrilled to be down 24 pounds, to have lost that in two months too is huge. I am wearing smaller clothes today - both my pants and my top are two sizes down. I've even lost 3 daily Weight Watchers points by now. I miss those 3 points, but it is a sign that I am making progress.
And just look at the visual! I think I'm going to start needing heavier things to visualize this loss. (Someone asked where I get these and the answer is I make them myself with stock images and MS Paint - I'm just technically proficient enough to handle it!)
I remember seeing friends get to this stage and being so happy for them, but also very jealous. I wanted to see the success they were and I was mad that I couldn't seem to muster up the willpower to do it myself. I imagine that there are those out there who might be jealous of this and I wish I could say something powerful and motivating to get you to see that you have the potential to change it if you want.
I have a long way to go. Such a long way, but when I stopped feeling sorry for myself and actually did the work that was necessary - tracking food, working out, following a program - I am seeing success. Trust me when I say if I can make it work then I know that you can too.
Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you in your efforts to get started. I always need more accountability and it is my hope and prayer that those who are out there struggling can taste the success that I am seeing and more.
We are only in a competition with ourselves afterall.
Thank you for all your support. I feel some bad week looming sometime but I'm just going to keep doing what is working - tracking, counting points and working out.