-3.8 lbs Total to date
And now I have a dilemma. On the one hand -1.4 is exactly in the .5-2lb weight loss we are told to expect. I get that. And a loss is a good thing. On the other hand, I expected it to be more. I guess I always thought that if I really got my act together that the weight would come off a little faster just because I was now attending to it. As if willpower alone could play a role in the speed in which I lose weight.
I mean really, I have been following the plan to a T. I don't know, I just hoped for more. Somehow -1.4 makes me feel like I'm doing something WRONG rather than following everything like I'm supposed to. Or that there is some trick to getting the scale to recognize my efforts. Instead the slow progress seems agonizing.
The painful reality is though that this is realistic weight loss. And realistically even if I do this well every single day that I will still be fighting this fight for YEARS. It makes me sad to know how far I have to go, and the reason I have so far is that I did this to myself. The scale is just part of that equation. I'm the bigger part. I did this, and I have to change it. And it sucks.
But what other choice do I have? Now is not the time to give up, it is the time to keep fighting and hope to reach 5lbs next week. One day at a time.