Tomorrow I weigh in for the first time on Weight Watchers. I've been following the plan and tracking for the last 10 days but this is my first weigh in since I found a partner to go with me on Wednesdays.
Despite the nagging doubts I have I know that I have done everything I'm supposed to in the plan. I ate my daily points, used weekly points where needed. I worked out 4 days. Everything, including my pants, point to the fact that I have lost something.
And yet there is anxiety in facing the scale knowing I gave it my all. What if I don't lose anything? What if I lose a little bit but I get frustrated because I wished it was more? What if... What if... It is those what ifs that used to keep me from following the plan to the fullest. If I sabotaged myself then I was never surprised by the result. Tomorrow, I don't know what the result will be because I refused to be sabotaged this time.
But I am hopeful, but more than that I am determined. To that end I have made myself 2.5 promises about tomorrow.
1. I will continue to follow the plan next week no matter what the outcome.
2. I will celebrate that I have accomplished a solid week on plan regardless of the number on the scale.
2b. Celebrate does not mean eat food.
I can keep those promises.
I'll keep you posted. I imagine it will be an interesting experience tomorrow. I'm hoping for a good number its true, but I am promising myself to keep on with the fight no matter what.