My One Breath, One Step recaps are coming, I promise. I am finding it hard to get the emotions and motivations they gave me down on paper. Also, I am tired. So tired, and I finally had an ephiphany about why I am SO tired.
I am working three full time jobs.
Ok, so not really. I am working one very busy job, being a full time mom, and putting myself full time into this weight loss thing.
Last week I worked as normal, participated in two worship services, Wed night programs and Sunday School, worked out 5 times, went to One Breath, One Step, and a therapy appointment, all while making sure that my son was happy, fed, rested and had plenty of positive attention. And I had a lot of help to get it all done, especially from Mr. Goat.
I feel sort of like a plate spinner. The moment you focus on one plate the others need attending to as well. You just keep going and going and hope that nothing drops to the ground.
But honestly right now I am so tired. And hungry. The last two days I have been hungry no matter what I eat. Even having eaten every point, plus two extra weekly points today, drinking 150oz of water, and having a balanced dinner, it is still taking most of my will power not to go to the fridge and eat every scrap of cheese in on the shelves. Or ice cream. Or chips (that I don't have - thank goodness).
I assume this is a sign of my metabolism kicking in and the workouts doing what they are supposed to, but it is taking effort tonight.
And my weigh in is tomorrow at 9:30. Will it show a loss? I hope so, but I don't know. A tentative weigh in at the gym on Monday didn't show much of a change. So I don't know.
I am still determined to succeed, but the balance of it all is so hard. I can't do everything "full time" so how do I find the balance?
How do you find balance between work, health and family?