Every night for over a week I go to bed and think, "Darn, I didn't blog today" But the reality is that I'm not feeling it lately. I feel swamped and more than overwhelmed and for the first time since I've started this blog 6 years ago the blog doesn't seem to be a relaxing solution to me. I have blog posts waiting to be written and the desire has turned to apathy.
I really don't like apathy as an emotional response and I'm not sure why I'm there, but for now it's there. And I just can't seem to force myself past it, and I wonder if I even should be trying to. I do love blogging and it has given me so many gifts over the last several years, but I just don't know what or where I want to go right now.
And I don't know whether I have the time to do it either.
In short... Blog questions abound that I don't have answers for. I feel some loyalty to the wonderful community here but wonder if I'm a contributing voice right now. There is so much that I am NOT doing right now - working out, eating right, blogging, cleaning, etc. Instead I just tread water to make it through each week a second before the doors clang shut. (Think Indiana Jones).
So I just don't know. I'd love any input you guys have. I suspect I'll be back soon, but right now I can't seem to bring it to the blog. I'm sorry.
I'll be back?