Thursday, June 16, 2011

Songs

Music speaks to most of us and like many of us I have diverse musical tastes. I can be (and regularly am) swept away by beautiful choral, band and orchestra music. I enjoy a good musical, but I also like popular music, jazz, and all sorts of random things.

Mostly I listen to NPR or KS95 which is a local pop station.  And over the last years a few songs have stuck out at different points in my life.  The first was Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Calliat.  I liked both artists but this song became powerful when I went on bed rest in the hospital with little goat.  Mr. Goat would go home each night and I would play this on repeat trying to sleep and cling to the fact that I was lucky and that I would go home someday (as the lyrics say).  This then became my continued theme song as I waited those 46 agonizing days for baby goat to come home from the NICU too.

The second song that has been a theme for me recently is Sara Bareilles' King of Anything.  When the situation at my last church was really bad for me and I wanted so badly to find a way out this became a song that I sang loudly in my car to reclaim my own independence.  While it isn't exactly what the song was about it was a reminder that I am the only who needs to speak for me and I should not hide behind what other's always expected of me.

Lately a song has been becoming a theme for my weight loss journey.  Like the last song I have to reimagine it a bit.  For example this song is sung to a love interest, but in my mind I am singing it to myself and for myself.  This song is Adam Lambert's Whataya Want From Me.  It's refrain in particular speaks to me.

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me
What do you want from me

This is the question and phrase I keep coming back to - "what do I want from me?" and "just don't give up!"  It is so easy to want to throw up my hands and give up.  It is so hard and has been hard for a long time, but I can't afford to give up.  So I sing at the top of my lungs and insist that I am worth not giving up on.  Because I'm not.

1 comment:

sabrinaisonthemove said...

Music has a powerful way to move, inspire, motivate, and even control us! I am glad you have a song that speaks to you and is pushing you forward!