So there is this concept in healthy eating/living. Be diligent and healthy 80% of the time and then be willing to splurge on 20%. That isn't to say you should throw it all away but just that you should give yourself permission to still eat some of the things you love.
It is a great idea in concept, but I'm pretty sure that you are supposed to do 80% of your weekly meals healthy, rather than be healthy for 80% of the day. The healthy for 80% of the day seems to be the route I've been taking though. I can (sort of) eat healthily throughout the day. 3 meals, try to keep portions down, not too much fat. I've been doing better about not eating out and choosing healthier options when I do. All progress.
Come about 9pm I suddenly lose all control and find myself knee deep in ice cream, chips, popcorn and a variety of other "not on the diet and certainly not at that point at night" foods. Worse, i do a lot of the shopping so that I am the one BRINGING THE FOOD IN THE HOUSE IN THE FIRST PLACE. And it is getting to be a habit. I think about the ice cream waiting at the end of the day.
This has to change, especially if I am going to make real progress. The problem is that I cannot say with certainty that I can't eat past 9pm. Sometimes that is when I get home and have a chance to eat dinner, but even with that the late night snacking has to stop.
And it isn't even a food as comfort thing, because honestly I have never been happier. Instead it seems like celebratory food - a "life is great, have cake" mentality. It is a great place to be, but it is a dangerous one too for me.
So no more 80/20 day by day. I can't afford to triple my daily calories thanks to an hour of binging. I need to reign it in - sugar and salt cravings alike. But how? I need some tools folks, and accountabilty and when I need those things I turn to my blog. So how do I break this cycle and get on track.
I haven't eaten tonight (though it was a big dinner) but I feel the urge to go upstairs and rummage. But I'm here instead, asking for your help. What can I do? Are their healthy snack options? Is there a grocery store police that I can hire to guard me? Timed locks on the freezer? It needs to stop. Tonight.
I want to succeed in this. Why is this so hard?