Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Coming Down

It is great to accomplish something.  It is great to run/walk that 5k and beat your best time.  It is great to do so with friends beside you.  It is great.

But it is still awful when you see photos the next day, photos of yourself and you think, "Dear God, am I really THAT big?"

And some of the accomplishment fades.

And the questions of how the hell you make this work return.  How the hell do you, do I, succeed in this.

Because those pictures don't lie.

Shit.  I wish they were lying.

11 comments:

Ali, another PriorFatGirl said...

I KNOW this feeling....I always see these pictures & they spur me to lose weight....and that lasts about a week. Pictures don't lie, but I have seen a few pictures from you #PFP-ers and you look amazing, Liz. You look happy, and proud....and sweaty ;)

Melinda said...

I can totally relate! I wish I had some sage advice to give you, but I'm in the same boat.

All I can say is to focus on your accomplishment--you did a 5K! That's huge! Now, focus on where you can go from here, not what you want to leave behind.

armageddjenn said...

I've been torturing myself the same way all day - even untagged myself in the photos, just because I don't want any smart-alecks killing my buzz. Try to focus on who you are and what you've done. I've just met you, but I can see that you're absolutely lovely inside and out! Let's move forward, and make some progress to feel proud of in our next round of pictures, eh? HUGS!

krisgetshealthy.com said...

Celebrate the victories and focus on the things you can do to change the things you can Liz.
I think you looked great, I know you felt great! Remember the high you felt crosing the finish line? Strong and Proud? Remember all your friends cheering for you? We don't care what size you are! We love you and are here to support you!
Do you have an action plan? Want to sit down with me and make one? We can do it together! I have confidence in you! You are focusing on the wrong thing in those photos if all you can see is your size.
(huge hugs!!!!!!!)

Sarah - Fat Little Legs said...

You can do it Liz... you can. How you make it work, that is something you have to figure out yourself, because we can all tell you what worked for us, but as individuals we are all different, and what works for me, might not work for you. For me, it was a motivation outside myself... the picture of my son as a preemie that I kept with me everywhere I went and looked at when I wanted to eat "X" or skip my workout. You will do this, you will find your way. I believe it.

Amelia Sprout said...

Excuse me for my bluntness, but Eff the pictures. Focus on the good feeling, and keep using that to move forward. Remember the good feeling you get when you work out, when you accomplish something, and use that to motivate you. I hated starting to run every time I did it, but I loved the feeling at the end. I let the memory of that be my motivation, and it worked. You can do this. You WILL do this.

Valerie said...

Please, you look great!! When I first saw this picture, all I could think of was how happy you looked. Hold on to that happy feeling, and try your hardest to keep those negative ones out. They'll only bring you down.

Jen, a priorfatgirl said...

Liz, feel those feelings -- look at the photos and let yourself truly be vulnerable to who you are and where you want to go in life. You achieved something amazing on Monday, do not ever let anyone take that away from you -- but this is a journey, you've got some amazing accomplishments ahead and now is the time to fight for them! I know you have the fight in you, I believe in you!

Unstoppable Mariah said...

I so had the same thought. I feel like I looked 50lbs ago. You did great and to me you looked great. Great because the picture reflects you accomplishing an amazing goal.

Momma Hunt said...

Oh I know how you feel! Pictures are the worse. But I will tell you this you were doing something in those pictures that a lot of my skinny 125 pound friends wouldn't or couldn't do and that is participate in a 5k. Be sure to be proud of what you have done

Ruby Leigh said...

I saw this pic(http://sitelife.runnersworld.com/ver1.0/Content/images/store/13/8/adbe0556-733f-431b-88d2-a16788373477.Medium.jpg) and it reminded me of your post. I hope you find it encoraging.