Probably my all-time favorite tv show is Star Trek: The Next Generation. It came out in my formative years beginning when I was 7 and running until I was 14. I still remember watching the very first episode with my mom who was properly geeked out at the thought of a new Star Trek series. Star Trek gave me my first TV crush - Wil Wheaton as Wesley Crusher - as well as my first true Sci-fi obssession.
One of the most famous "bad" alien races in the series were the Borg. They had cube spaceships and operated more as a hive or a collective with their organic bodies melded to mechanic ones. They had no individuality and operated as one. Their mission was to seek the galaxy and take over as many planets and peoples as possible in order to enhance and increase their technology and knowledge and they weren't really friendly about it. They took what they wanted. Their motto:
Resistance is Futile
They become true enemies thorughout the series, threatening earth, kidnapping Captain Picard and assimilating him (shown above) and generally causing bad guy trouble. And of course, when threatened by the Borg the Enterprise and the Federation never stopped resisting.
The Borg insisted, and were very persuasive in trying to convince their opponents, that Resistance was indeed futile. And at times it seemed like that was a true statement and that the good guys were doomed. But in the end their resistance of the Borg was never futile. For all the loses that they suffered in the war with the Borg, they always prevailed in the end.
Lately the Borg is my head. It is insistant that resistance is futile. Resistance to food is futile. Resistance to being fat is futile. Resistance to laziness is futile. That is my head's belief - Resistance is Futile.
But today, in the face of this refrain I remembered Star Trek TNG and realized that even in the darkest, most frustrating or scary times resistance was never futile. Resistance to weight gain, compulsive eating, laziness, disordered thinking about food and self-image, any of it, is NEVER futile. It may take me a year or two or twelve but so long as I refuse to give up it is not a futile attempt.
So even though this weight loss journey hasn't been going well lately today I insist that Resistance is NOT futile and that I will keep resisting.