Between Obama's State of the Union Address and our church's annual meeting I've been thinking a lot about the state of Liz, that is to say me. It is no secret here that I'm trying to work on my weight loss, as I've written about it in this forum already, but I've been thinking deeper than that.
How is my emotional state? My physical state? My family? etc. It has been interesting to think about and as I thought I've come to one main conclusion.
I am HAPPY.
Which isn't to say that I am always cheerful (hehe, no) but I am in a really good place going into this year. Much of this comes from my change in jobs. Last year saw me lose my job after several years of struggling in a situation that amounted to professional bullying. But within a week I was hired in a new job that has been so supportive, energizing and such a good fit for me that I am seeing many things in a different light.
When I was struggling with the anxiety and stress that I felt each day at work I couldn't really face making myself stronger. I was on high alert and spent much of my time guarding myself emotionally...and I did that through food.
I can't say that approaching my desire to get healthy and lose weight is EASY this year, but it is easier to think about and really try than it had been before and much of that seems to be from the fact that I am simply happy. There are things that I want to change but I am more hopeful about my ability to do them than I have been in a while. This, added with my new CPAP fueled real sleep, means I have tools I didn't have before to make things real this time!
And so far things seem to be going well. I've been working out regularly 4-5 times a week for the last 3 weeks and am working to follow Weight Watchers online. I'm still struggling with the diet but I'm making continued efforts and the regular exercise is making noticable changes in my hunger (I get hungry now AND full!) and food cravings - which are slowly shifting to more healthy foods. I'm working on it and am still excited about the changes I'm making and that is huge.
One of the goal setting things I've decided is that I will have a monthly health goal. I know that I can do almost anything for a month (or for lent for example) so I'm going to take specific things that I need to focus on and make it part of my monthly goals. So for example, as I learn more about healthy eating, my goal for Feb is to not eat at ANY restaurant that has a drive thru window. This gives me subway and a few lunch out options still but I nixes any McDonald's breakfasts, Culver's shakes, or Wendy's burgers. So you heard it hear first: February is NO Drive-thru month. Who want's to join me? (For clarification I cannot eat at the restaurants at all, even if I were to go inside, they are just off limits).
So work is good, diet is improving, and baby goat has had a few healthy weeks. Hopefully we'll get a few more because it really helps our schedules be much more manageable when we are all well! We are looking forward to the next few months to pack and move into our first house! There are still some hoops to jump through to dot the i's and make it all a Go, but we are moving forward and it is moving fast! Hooray!
In conclusion, I am happy, I love my job, I will lose weight, my family is well, and we are getting a house! Squee!