Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Hunt for health

2011 has sure swept in with a storm of baby goat illnesses.  After the hospital last week he's been home for the last two days with a GI/fever virus thing.  Not fun but thankfully it is not anything upper respiratory.  Still, I am ready so much for some health, for baby goat's sake mostly and for Mr. Goat and mine too.  I don't think I've worked a complete week of work since Thanksgiving because of all the crud.

I know it is likely temporary and baby goat will keep growing and building antibodies.  I also know that we are taking all the right steps to get and keep his asthma under control.  It is a scary thing but it is just what we are given to deal with, and we can.  I just wish I could do so with a little less frustration.

Part of the frustration has been my inability to get to the gym since we rejoined.  I'm so grateful that we were given the membership to the Y for Christmas but I want to go and take advantage of it.  I have been full of good intentions but all my spare time has been baby care or finding a way to finish my work.

BUT

Tomorrow, if baby goat wakes up able to go to daycare, TOMORROW is the restart day.  I'm on the hunt for health right now, for me, for baby goat, for Mr. Goat, for our family.    I know it is a long (long) way to go, but I need to take step 1.

I've taken step 1 before but I hope this will be my very last first step and that every other step will be 2, 3, 4, 5...

I hope to share my thoughts on this as I go on.  I feel like I'm starting from scratch but I am hopeful and if I'm being honest, a little fearful too.  This needs to happen and the time for me is now, but I"m notorious for sabatoging myself before I truly begin.

Tomorrow's goals:

* Go to gym.
* Journal food.
* Weigh self to get the starting point.

Those I think I can handle.  We'll just have to go from there.

6 comments:

trishatfox said...

First things first. Don't worry about what you haven't gotten done. Look forward. Baby goat has been the priority because his health needs are urgent. But your health needs are important, too, and you're wise not to lose sight of them.

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Jon, Sara, Tyler, and Sophie said...

Best of luck today, Liz. Honestly, I think that the first step of getting started (and facing that number on the scale) is the hardest. Good job taking some time to work on you. As moms we often put everyone else first, but if we aren't at our best, we can't be there fully for our families - I am learning this too.

Valerie said...

You can do it! Just think, there will come a day when you will be discussing this time with Baby Goat (then Teenager Goat) and you will say, "You did your best to sabotage my efforts with illnesses and dirty diapers, but we are both healthy now." Then you will both laugh (well Adolescent Goat may scowl), and all will be well in the world. Keep that not-to-distant day in your mind. Good luck!

Sharon said...

I like that. You very last first step. You sound like John -- you know, the evangelist... "He who comes after me is above me because he was before me." Anyway, nice use of prepositions. Very poetic.

But it's not just nice linguistically. What a great way to think about it. Starting over again for the last time. You can do it. You will do it.

Writing down your goals is so huge for being able to reach them. Publishing them on your blog in front of all of us and everyone else is even more powerful.

Go get 'em Liz!

Sarah - Fat Little Legs said...

You know my now 3 year old went through this same thing around 18 months... he was always sick. He had pneumonia twice in 3 months at one point! It was so hard during that time, and I felt exactly like you are describing at the time, but now he has this iron immunity, so I guess that is good.

Your health is important as well. Take care of yourself as much as possible, it will really make EVERYTHING easier if you do! I have been at your point, it is alot to think about, just try to control some part at a time, and you will be successful. I'm rooting for you.