2011 has sure swept in with a storm of baby goat illnesses. After the hospital last week he's been home for the last two days with a GI/fever virus thing. Not fun but thankfully it is not anything upper respiratory. Still, I am ready so much for some health, for baby goat's sake mostly and for Mr. Goat and mine too. I don't think I've worked a complete week of work since Thanksgiving because of all the crud.
I know it is likely temporary and baby goat will keep growing and building antibodies. I also know that we are taking all the right steps to get and keep his asthma under control. It is a scary thing but it is just what we are given to deal with, and we can. I just wish I could do so with a little less frustration.
Part of the frustration has been my inability to get to the gym since we rejoined. I'm so grateful that we were given the membership to the Y for Christmas but I want to go and take advantage of it. I have been full of good intentions but all my spare time has been baby care or finding a way to finish my work.
Tomorrow, if baby goat wakes up able to go to daycare, TOMORROW is the restart day. I'm on the hunt for health right now, for me, for baby goat, for Mr. Goat, for our family. I know it is a long (long) way to go, but I need to take step 1.
I've taken step 1 before but I hope this will be my very last first step and that every other step will be 2, 3, 4, 5...
I hope to share my thoughts on this as I go on. I feel like I'm starting from scratch but I am hopeful and if I'm being honest, a little fearful too. This needs to happen and the time for me is now, but I"m notorious for sabatoging myself before I truly begin.
* Go to gym.
* Journal food.
* Weigh self to get the starting point.
Those I think I can handle. We'll just have to go from there.