Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Creativity Boot Camp Day 3 - Multilayered

I am behind on my Creativity Boot Camp assignments due to the Goat family's little trip to WI.  So I'll be getting back to Days 1 and 2 but am jumping in on Day 3 today.

"Multi-layered"

There are metaphors that stick with you in life and I confess when given the inspiration word of Multilayered I thought of one thing: the movie Shrek.  More specifically when Shrek describes how he has layers, like an onion has layers.  Donkey of course retorts that a parfait would be a better word as everyone loves parfaits, but true to Shrek's gruff exterior he sticks with onions.

The point of course is neither onions nor parfaits but the layers that embody everyone - the idea that we are all more than we appear.  In Shrek's case of course it becomes clear that beneath the ugly and coarse surface there is a sensitive, caring, and compassionate soul - hardly the normally job description of an ogre.

I think of layers a lot and how they seem to pile up on us, like too many layers of clothing and before you know it you are sweating and suffocating under the weight of them.  Have you experienced that?  There is the mom layer, the employee layer, the wife layer, the daughter layer, the geek layer, the believer layer, the skeptic layer, the afraid layer and the confident layer too.  And that is just naming a few.

If you are like me, those layers end up in conflict sometimes.  I may try to put on my employee layer only to be dragged back by a feverish child.  I may try to hide my fearful layer only to have it bubble to the surface, but the struggle for me is, where do the layers end?  What is the core that the layers protect?  What is my true self when all of these multitude of layers make up me as well?

I signed up for Creativity Boot Camp because my creativity layer was looking thin and scraggly.  It has been neglected, trapped under necessary layers of day to day life.  The motherhood layer has grown and is never far from the surface now and it can be hard to allow it to sink down at times guilt free.  I am writing because that is my medium, such as it is, but I have little idea where these posts might take me.  Will I do a little fiction writing?  Some poetry?  More random thoughts like this one?

I don't know, but my hope is that I'll become a little less multilayered and a little more like a tapestry, with beautiful glimmers of my different layers (or threads) showing through.  Maybe it deosn't have to layers piled atop one another with only one showing at at time.  What might we look like if all our mulitude of layers glimmered at once, would the eye then be able to capture and contain the trueness of that person?

If you let all your layers show at once what might you see within yourself?  Who might you appear to be?

4 comments:

Emma said...

This is a really cool post, Liz. Like you, I'm always juggling multiple roles, often poorly! (Or at least it feels that way). I love it when things really click--like when something I'm reading for pleasure gives me a great idea for work, and someone at work tells me a story that helps with my volunteer work. Etcetera. Once in the while, I catch a glimmer of the tapestry you describe.

Kristi said...

I love that line from Shrek as well as the idea that we are all multi-layered...what a great post!

I think as a mother, the layering definitely is always there, but in rare moments, I find myself underneath...the layers only add to the basis of who I am underneath it all. I feel the layers give me more depth. :-)

Hyacynth said...

Know EXACTLY what you mean about layers. Honestly. I get tangled in all of my layers every day ... and it's exhausting trying to get out. So glad you're participating in boot camp. I'll be sure to add you to the daily check in list. Woo!

Melissa said...

This: "I think of layers a lot and how they seem to pile up on us, like too many layers of clothing and before you know it you are sweating and suffocating under the weight of them. Have you experienced that?"

YES, YES, YES! So true, so honest, this is a perfect description of womanhood I think...

and this: "I don't know, but my hope is that I'll become a little less multilayered and a little more like a tapestry, with beautiful glimmers of my different layers (or threads) showing through. "

YES AGAIN! That is my hope too! To be a beautiful tapestry where everything is visible and nothing is hiding the other, oh what a beautiful image and dream.