Monday, June 28, 2010

Couch to 5k Challenge - Week 12

Gosh this is so depressing.  It is week 12 and I'm an still way back at the beginning.  I haven't run for 3 very crazy weeks and even at my best I got as far as finishing week 2.  So many people who started the journey with me are able to run their 5ks now.  My awesome sister did a full 5k run just yesterday morning, before brunch, out of town.  (Clearly awesome).

I know some of the reality is that I have been busy and swamped and some of the reality is that I've chosen sleep or a moment with my son instead of running in the few spare moments I've had, but it is just sad to me.  Am I failing at this just like every diet and workout program ever?  I am still no closer to running a 5k really, or even to running a mile without stopping.  Comments and support have dropped off no doubt because it is apparent that I clearly haven't been making enough effort in it.  My vision of supporting each other has faded away as people didn't seem interested in comment or linking to support one another.  Do I just try too much?

But, I don't really want to give up with this.  I had been making progress, albeit at a slow crawling turtle type pace.  So what do I do about this?

Start over. 

This morning I registered for that 5k I promised myself I'd run.  It is the Liz Logelin Foundation 5k on September 18th.  It will be my first.

It is 12 weeks away.

I've been doing this for 12 weeks already and made it through week 2.

It is time to step it up.


Tonight and this week I will repeat week 2 to get back into the swing of things and then I will march forward on this program.

I don't know that I'll make or that I'll be able to run the whole thing, but I'm not giving up the dream yet.

In fact I'm doing that 5k even if I have to crawl across the finish line...but running would be even better.

It is real now, there is no turning back.

Sign up with me? 

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Gina said...

You and me both lady! I'll starting at week one again this week!

Tiffany said...

Okay! Here's the deal. We are going to do this together. I'm only a week 3 and after camp, realistically, we'll be on the same week together. We'll lean on each other and we'll get there and I'll check with the ball and chain and if we both stick to this, I'll come up and run the 5K with you. Our incentive; a girl's weekend together. We can do this!

Jen said...

I'm going to do week 3 this week. So I'm right there with you.

Valerie said...

So, I'm on week 7, but I'm currently on an indefinite hold. I needed to take a break for life, and I figure that when I have some other things sorted out I can add the 5k thing. So, I'm sure that by the time I get back into it, you will have surpassed me.

Also, maybe comments have dropped off because some people aren't nearly as motivated as you. I think you're doing awesome. Instead of focusing on what you haven't done, try focusing more on what you running outside with your dad. I still haven't gotten off the treadmill. Keep it up!

darcie said...

I'll be there - whether I'm running/walking/crawling it along with you or just cheering you on - (because I might be working too much of the 5k to actually run this one) but I'll be there...
and don't give can do this.

Casey said...

Life changes are tough. Some changes can be made simply by changing your thought process. Some can be made by changing your routine. Some can be made by asking others to help change your environment. You have chosen one that really needs changes in almost every area of life. You need to change your priorities. You need to change your routine, and in order to do that with a young child, you need to make changes in your environment.

I noticed you said you are no closer to a 5K than you were when you started, and I would emphatically disagree. You are so much closer. You have assembled a support group. You have shown yourself you can succeed at those first two weeks. You have also felt the disappointment when things didn't go as anticipated. AND, you signed up for a 5K. Remember that success doesn't necessarily mean running every step of the 5K. Success can be whatever you decide to make it. For me, success was completing my first 5K and getting there in front of the lady who was wearing jeans. :) If I wasn't going to be 37 weeks pregnant at the time of the race, I might be tempted to sign up just to get a weekend in Minneapolis. As it is, I'm pretty sure that I'll be on travel restriction by that point.

You are succeeding every time you commit and recommit to this goal. Maintain your commitment and the other successes will follow.

Anti-Supermom said...

So have so much support here, the same that you will see when you do that 5K in September. You can do it!

We all believe that you can.

Denise said...

I've got about 13 weeks left of my program, so I can kinda count down with you!