Monday, May 24, 2010

Couch to 5k Challenge - Week 7

I am tentative to post here today.  I didn't get out last week.  Baby goat has been sick and I've been thinking about all the kind things you've said here too.  I'm trying to figure out if this is what I want and if I'm really REALLY willing to make the commitment.

And as I've been mulling it over I found at weird times wishing I could go workout at that moment.  I've been looking at the food I eat and feeling kind of sick about it and my seeming inability to prevent myself from eating it.  I've been meeting with fabulous bloggers, many of whom are in the process of real, lasting, significant, life-changing weight loss.

I've been watching the success, frustration and perseverance of my friends doing this.

And I realized that I do indeed want this.  I really do.  The challenge will be not even the workouts themselves, or the time, but keeping THIS want in the forefront of my mind.  I have food/relaxation ADHD sometimes.  I see something that sounds, tastes, or sights that look good and I forget about my good intentions and my long-term wants.

But increasingly it is clear that I have to take time to be more mindful and choose the real lasting want underneath it.

I'm starting over this week.  Tonight.  As I'm home with baby goat being sick today I will take the time to go out tonight and let Mr. Goat have sick baby bedtime.  I don't have evening meetings this week so I'm going to shoot for 4 workouts - week 1's but workouts the same.

I"m going to try changing other parts too.  Getting my sugar addiction under control.  Reducing my eating out.  Drinking more water.  I don't want to say "I'll do it tomorrow" any more.  I want to do it today.  I want to do it yesterday!

So I'm beginning again.  And I'm beginning again everyday from here on out.  And that is where I am at.  How's it going with you?

P.S.  I should mention that at no time has this been an issue of Mr. Goat not being willing to take the time with baby goat, or me feeling he isn't capable of it.  He is, often more so than me.  It really is all about me and my own hangups.


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5 comments:

Kelly @ Dream. Strive. Succeed. said...

There's no doubt in my mind, from any of your posts, that you want this. And today's post jut confirms it! What an awesome commitment you're making to yourself! And don't forget the example this will set for Baby Goat over time. He will grow up seeing his Mama make positive and healthier choices, and that can only be a wonderful thing!

For me, starting over is difficult. It's hard not to take it personally, not to see it as a negative sometimes. But, really, starting over is, well, doing something. It's not giving up. It's not throwing in the towel. It's having the grace to give yourself another chance. Because you deserve it!

I'm doing my 28-week C25K program for that same reason. I was starting over a lot on the 9 week C25K, so I gave myself permission to do a 28-week version. As of today, I'm 1/3 of the way through week 12.

I walked for 6 minutes, racewalked for 12 minutes, and jogged for 12 minutes. I broke the walk/racewalk/jog into 3 intervals, so I walked for 2 min, racewalked for 4 min, jogged for 4 min, 3 times over the course of the workout. (and these 4 minute jogging intervals are probably the longest I've jogged, ever, or at least since I was very small!).

You're attacking this the right way, sez I. I have been reading your blog since you started the C25K challenge, and I intend to read long past your first 5K! Hang in there, and keep your chin up!

Kate said...

I love reading this post. (and I read it several times too- just to take it all in)

With any huge change in life, we need to come to a point where what we are doing simply cannot work for us any longer. We NEED to be totally ready to commit, especially when it comes to the physical changes. My weight loss was not a big one, but it was more than a year after I realized I needed to make a change before I actually took the steps necessary to get it under control. Once I reached that point of no return, it seemed to come much easier. This is my hope for you.

Please let me know if there is any way I can help, other than standing on the sidelines with my pompoms, cheering you on.

Anti-Supermom said...

Oh Liz, I'm with Kelly - it's obvious that you want to do this. I wish I could say something profound but it really is about taking baby steps to changing your life.

You can do it. We are all here to support you, I think you know that though.

Forge ahead.

DaisyGal said...

I know you want to do this, I can tell just from the way you write about it.

Cheering you on from PA!!! I would walk with you if I could.

GOOD LUCK !!!!!!You're awesome..remember that!

Hyacynth said...

Rooting for you and here to help in any way I can. I've been there, and I empathise. Greatly.