I am tentative to post here today. I didn't get out last week. Baby goat has been sick and I've been thinking about all the kind things you've said here too. I'm trying to figure out if this is what I want and if I'm really REALLY willing to make the commitment.
And as I've been mulling it over I found at weird times wishing I could go workout at that moment. I've been looking at the food I eat and feeling kind of sick about it and my seeming inability to prevent myself from eating it. I've been meeting with fabulous bloggers, many of whom are in the process of real, lasting, significant, life-changing weight loss.
I've been watching the success, frustration and perseverance of my friends doing this.
And I realized that I do indeed want this. I really do. The challenge will be not even the workouts themselves, or the time, but keeping THIS want in the forefront of my mind. I have food/relaxation ADHD sometimes. I see something that sounds, tastes, or sights that look good and I forget about my good intentions and my long-term wants.
But increasingly it is clear that I have to take time to be more mindful and choose the real lasting want underneath it.
I'm starting over this week. Tonight. As I'm home with baby goat being sick today I will take the time to go out tonight and let Mr. Goat have sick baby bedtime. I don't have evening meetings this week so I'm going to shoot for 4 workouts - week 1's but workouts the same.
I"m going to try changing other parts too. Getting my sugar addiction under control. Reducing my eating out. Drinking more water. I don't want to say "I'll do it tomorrow" any more. I want to do it today. I want to do it yesterday!
So I'm beginning again. And I'm beginning again everyday from here on out. And that is where I am at. How's it going with you?
P.S. I should mention that at no time has this been an issue of Mr. Goat not being willing to take the time with baby goat, or me feeling he isn't capable of it. He is, often more so than me. It really is all about me and my own hangups.
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