When I was pregnant I ate with the baby in mind. I avoided cold cuts and soft cheeses. I limited my diet cokes, I watched my fish intact and had a prenatal vitamin everyday.
Since baby goat was born I have pumped everyday (between 5-8 times a day) to provide him with breastmilk since we couldn't get breastfeeding to work. I have pumped for 11 months and am still going.
I do it because it is:
1. Healthier for baby goat.
I want to quit pumping each and everyday. I don't like the time or dedication it takes. I don't like the extra dishes to wash. I don't like not being able to play with baby goat because I'm hooked up to a milking machine. But I do it. I will do it for at least another month. Everyday. I am determined to do this for him. He deserves it.
11 months committed to baby goat - hours a day - to ensure he gets the healthiest start I can give.
So why can I not give that same time and determination to myself?
Take something simple like taking my lunch to work. Let's see, it is:
1. Healthier for me.
It doesn't even take as much time as pumping. Nor does exercise. Or cooking healthy meals.
Why is it so much easier (still hard but easier) to commit the time and energy to give baby goat the healthier option than myself? It is hard. I know it is hard, but I know I have 11 months of determination in my for baby goat and more.
Do I have it for myself? Surely I deserve it to?