I am tired today. Deeply tired. I've worked for 10 days straight and while they weren't all 8 hour days it is enough to influence the whole days plans. I'm tempted to bitch about it and wonder how people do it: jobs, kids, housework, and still sleep. I haven't done any housework for like 2 weeks and I'm not really looking forward to finding time to do it. Tomorrow is some more work, a flu shot, two vet appointments, and some work errands for Sunday. I might throw a nap in there too since it is my day "off" at least officially.
Still it is all details. The big picture is much brighter. It is funny in a way: We are broke, crazy busy and there is plenty to worry about. But honestly? I've never been happier. I love being a mother. I love being a wife. I love working with kids. I love having a creative outlet.
Sure the mess is maddening, the lack of exercising frustrating and the schedule tiring, but I wouldn't trade it. I look forward to a time in our lives when we could (maybe) afford a housecleaner or even a gym membership again, but I'm pretty glad where I am at.
It is funny. I can come home tired and irrateable and an hour later with baby goat and Mr. Goat and maybe a little bad/good TV and I'm willing to do it all over.
What is it that resets your emotional clock and gives you the ability to pick up and keep going?
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Man Liz, that's a great question. What is it that resets my emotional clock?
I think it's my daily workout - more often than not a run. When I don't get to run in over 3 days, my whole world starts to crumble. I just can't deal with it all. 30 minutes of freedom in a run and I have a totally renewed outlook on my abilities and my place in the world.
Ok, so I agree with Amber about the workout things. I'm definitely crankier without a walk at minimum. What really resets my clock, however, is time with the dogs. Go figure. I'm a dog trainer. :)
I've found that no matter how upset or tired or cranky I am, a quick cuddle with Cody makes the world a better place. Of course, a husband-cuddle is wonderful too, but it's just not the same without that big bundle of fur.
I hear ya. Exactly my thoughts- exactly on the : tiredness, the lack of cleaning (ouch), the appointments, etc,. but I do find that I HAVE to get even a 30 min workout in (MY TIME!) otherwise I go insane. I find myself - being able to read on the treadmill - makes me "recharged". OF course, anytime I leave my kids at home with daddy and not me,I miss them immensely. They are our hearts.
coffee.
No, but seriously... I find that physical excercise has been helping me, when I feel dragged down and wanting nothing other than my bed, riding my bicycle to school every day helps. Coffee helps. People to talk to helps. Places to be on the weekend when I would otherwise sleep in help. Knowing the day will eventually end helps. Taking things one step at a time helps. And, hopefully, comments like this help!
I will have to agree with the others about exercising reshaping my life. Diets don't work without it....depression becomes more manageable...and self-esteem goes up!
As a new Mom, you are in the perfect place to combine exercise and bonding with your child. Walk with him while he's in his stroller and talk with him, sing to him...make that stroller speed sometimes...he will LOVE it! And love you for making him have so much fun! On pretty days walk outside....on yucky days go to an indoor mall. Set your goal to work up to walking at least a mile a day everyday while having fun with Edward.
Housework? Make it part of your exercise/bonding routine. Put on some great music...have Edward where he can watch you...and while you're dusting and picking up (Weight Watchers gives 1 exercise point for every 20 minutes of doing this), let Edward watch you dance or sing....sometimes dance with him....march around the house with him (once he can walk)...he will LOVE it...and you will be combining exercise with mother love. You will feel better, look better and create some unforgettable moments with your child. Plus have the satisfication of a cleaner house and a real sense of accomplishment.
Do this for 3 weeks without fail...the walking everyday with Edward and using music to exercise while cleaning and you will really miss it if you stop. Heck, your body will demand it...and so will Edward. Good luck!
P.S. One final comment...the more tired you feel at the end of the workday...the more VITAL it is that you do this. Your body will reward you by making you feel better afterwards. It's better than speed...because with speed you crash...with the exercise you get an afterglow.
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