Checking in from the coaster

I've been torn. I don't want this to become a weight-loss type blog, just like I don't want it to be a church worker blog nor do I want it to be a mom blog when I get to the point of having kids. But this whole gym thing is taking a front stage in my life right now an I can't help but want to write (complain?) about it. Plus, given the nature of the beast, I am constantly up and down about how well it is going and whether or not any difference is or is not being made. It is a roller coaster that I am riding on daily and weekly and moment by moment trying to cling to the tops of the hills and avoiding those stomach sinking lows.

And there are some lows. I am still not losing any weight which is SO frustrating. I'm having huge trouble figuring out the exercise AND food pieces. While I'm getting into some routine with the exercise, the more time I spend exercising the harder it is to figure out the food piece. Not only does it take away the time I could spend cooking and preparing good meals, but it is also makes my meals happen at very odd times. Last night I didn't have dinner until 10pm because of all my normal meetings and trying to get to the gym still. So I was exercising for almost an hour last night but was extremely inefficient because of having no food energy to lead me. I haven't found a food routine that works for me like the exercise piece yet.

And of course there is still my dislike of the gym. I met with a trainer last week and am going to try to find the $$ to do that once per month just to keep a check in going. I have a whole plan for the month and have been trying to mostly follow it. I did miss out on my Sunday workout since I was at the indoor waterpark with the church groups for 3 hours that afternoon and was too pooped to go back out in the frigid cold to get some more exercise in. The waterpark wasn't a very efficient form of cardio but I figure it was better than nothing.

Still, things can look up too. I put in 5 days last week and am on pace for 4-5 this week (it may depend on whether or not I count Sunday). I've been 18 out of the last 29 days in fact, which is better than every other day. And it is getting easier to last the 30-45 minutes. In fact, I need to make sure that I keep on working and making an effort to keep pushing myself as it does get easier.

Still, for the success of doing it, I'm seeing very few results and that makes it frustrating. I've never been one to lose weight quickly. My fat clings to me for dear life as if it is a tantrum-y toddler who doesn't want to go sit on Santa's lap. I'm getting into a good exercise habit, but I wonder when my efforts will start to show.

It is funny to me too because hubby can notice a difference after one or two gym sessions where it has been almost a month of regular attendence and I see...nothing. But I'm glad that it works for hubby too, it makes it so much easier to take the time to make the effort. But I'll just keep riding this coaster and hopefully my ups will start coming more often and my numbers will start responding.

Maybe when spring comes the fat will begin to flee more quickly as the temperature rises. Can you shed fat like a winter coat? I hope so because I'm worried about loosing my motivation if there are no results. But at least for now, I'm committed for the long term.